Cubicle

Cubicle

Many of my dreams are still dreams!

Many of my efforts are waiting to turn as experiences!

Still I am waiting for my superior to assign my next assignment, whereas I do have lot of dreamt assignments yet to be assigned.

When I look back and think, often it’s all assumptions that made my path till some age.

Then?

My Beliefs sketched it further till some time.

Then?

Money carried it further more, and when I realize the real meaning of life & satisfaction,

all those assumptions disappeared, 

beliefs betrayed, 

money kept on moving, 

and here finally I find myself locked inside my office Cubicle taking part in a race where I see neither a destination, nor a sign board.

Do you know? When I was a kid...

My fast running legs made me to behave like an athlete,

My high energy level helped me to grow as a soccer's champion,

My efficiency in communication told me I am a stage speaker, 

My flexible joints moved me as a dancer,

My squeezy shape shaped me as a gymnast,

My quick and convincing expressions explained I am an actor.

My dad's teashop always taught me I am a businessman.

At the end,

So many ambitions, so many races, so well plotted, so greatly believed.

And, Ha-ha, I think of this now sitting inside my office Cubicle.

I Know, I am supposed to handle my own company’s customers, but what I actually handle here are photo copies from Xerox machines.

I wonder, why am I here inside this Cubicle? I assume as if this Cubicle is Questioning this to me.

I convince myself that, I am designed to be here.

Whenever I hear someone uttering an old saying, “The world is very small “,

I naturally smile and nod my head.

Yeah! Very true! The world is very small.

As small as my Cubicle, right? This has become my world now!

My daily routines inside my cubicle thought me one simple thing about satisfaction in Job,

‘There are only two types of Satisfaction in a job, either a Field Satisfaction (given by the field and nature of your work) or a Financial Satisfaction (needs no explanation)’ and between these two, I often run and roam like a baby moving within divorced parents.

Few get both the satisfactions rarely, pathetically I am common and not rare! I am like You and Like many of us.

I confess now, I decide to stay in this Cubicle to attend my present priority!

I never say I chose this job inside my Cubicle out of compulsion,

I proudly say I chose this out of passion.

All I say is I didn't see this job, the way it is.

I didn’t dream this Cubicle the actual size it is.

I don’t blame the digits in my salary, I mean about the degrees of satisfaction I have while getting it.

All those

keyboards and mouse,

Configuration and codes,

Circuits and wires,

Motherboards and ICs,

Meters and Instruments,

Grease and oils, and

Bricks and Mortars,

were kept in front of everyone, some saw these as options while some got these as an opportunity

I skipped my dreams since I chose for an opportunity!

I made the athlete within me to Walk slowly,

I asked the Soccer champ to sit and type with Keyboards,

I used my effective communications for my interviews, 

I moved my flexible joints for stretching in front of my PC,

I chose the Squeezy shape to sit inside my small cubicle,

I performed my acting skills in front of my own mind.

Finally, I am Slow poisoning the Businessman inside me to death.

I dreamt to be a Founder of a firm, I thought I should be an employee to achieve that. And now I am Scared because I see myself inside a Mythical Comfort Zone.

My life is as fast as a train moving on rails, its all preset and if I choose to move out, there would be a catastrophe.

Being an engine driver, I am proud that I drive, but actually I failed to understand that my path is predefined.

I Still believe, there is always a change, either in the direction or in the function. So, instead of confusing and allowing a catastrophe to happen in my mind, I chose to remain and travel on this journey.

My cubicle taught me to hate my job, stay calm, Think and Act, and now to Set priority

I am common, I too have problems, regrets, issues, opinions, thoughts, wishes, disappointments, failures, fake people, cheaters, etc. etc. and etc.

I have got Two more things in addition to those,

That's the ability to correct anything and a Perfect time to lead my own life.

There was a problem in my mind,

There is a Solution in the same mind.

All I say is sit calm and set priority.

All these I here were meant to be You and Us.

So,

Simply Prioritize!

Rest will Happen!

-AmAn